taking one step at a time...

Just a few days past, I went by one of the usual web pages that I go to. Its the account of someone I that used to be my a very special part of my life.

She is everything that ever wanted. She became the center of my whole damn life.

I had my job, she had hers. We're happy whenever we were together. I thought everything was in place. And yes, we had our share of misunderstandings. But we always try to solve it as fast as we could.

Then something happened that was not yet a part of our plans. We were both not ready. I was not yet prepared but I willing to face the challenge.

It became a huge fight. I wanted it somehow, she does not. I was getting ready for it, she was scared. I tried to comfort her but I guess it was not enough. Until one day, it was gone.

I never knew what exactly happened but it did crushed my world.

I thought because of what happened it would bring us closer and somehow it would make us even stronger. But I was wrong.

She asked for space. She wants us to part ways. She said she's not yet ready. She still have a lot of plans for her career. She got dreams to fulfill. And she doesn't want that to happen again anytime soon.

There was nothing I could do. Perhaps I did nothing to avoid it.

I can still remember that she told me that maybe when the time comes when everything is in place, when she's ready, and when I'm ready, we could have what we used to have. And I held on to that until today.

I found out she's into a new relationship now. And the way I see her in her photos she seems fulfilled.

Its about 2 years now since we parted ways. Yet, it still feels like it was just yesterday. Maybe I held on too much to what she said. Maybe I just couldn't accept that its over. Maybe I was able to move on as I'm supposed to.

I moved back to my mom's hometown, hoping to have a new start. A new place, new friends and a new job. But I was wrong.

Just because you don't see the places you have been to, hear the songs you used to love or do the things you used to, doesn't mean you'll forget about the pain.

She was my everything, nothing was left of me. Maybe one of this days I'll learn to put myself back from pieces, taking one step at a time...